hijaubukandaun

not sure but i guess im not the type that love to boast about myself…but seem a few flies around here just can’t get enough of themselves..really,gently i asked you to backoff…i’m sick and tired of your game and don’t let me start with my own..i won’t stop till you are down…if you feel like you are good, kind, beautiful enough around the whole universe then, really be confident about it…don’t feel inferior like me…at least i’ve been true to myself and evethough i feel like so hard to forgive and forget, maybe you have been forgiven but never will i forget…so, don’t go around creating tell tales about others if you can’t make yourself perfect…opss, forget, no one is perfect…can’t believe that some people are really good at acting but never win anything..oh,yes, maybe lotsa companies that only will be there when you are happy but none when you are in trouble…open your mind and not only your eyes…it has been polluted with so much of your insecurity that you are not even yourself…gain some respects please! and if you don’t understand a word that i wrote, get a dictionary and start to learn words that normal people use to converse = talk (btw,)…and please have some sense of dignity to yourself….

The ghost
in my head
shouting, screaming
I’m lost, and I’m yearning

Spring is with me
Winter is in me
God, help me
I am lost, as lost as I can be

Melancholy is in me
Sadness I am not to be
Bliss I yearn to be
Someone please, help me see!

Overwhelming
Desperation stretches me
As he tries
To give reliance

—-

So here I am
Reading this poem
This I have to say
For you mon cœur, I can allay

Dance my lady, dance!
Dance the night away!
Dance till you go astray!
For I will always lead you the way!

(and as for the ending, a haiku for you.)

Warms my heart and soul,
brings happiness to my life
as you’re in my life.

As I am, in you.

taken from someone..pinjam ek, since i can’t comment on ur page..:D

yeah, as usual i still wake up and in the middle of my-burning-the-oil-moments..gung, my sleeping problem is still incureable…just wasting my time finishing the software reliability assignment but i decided to take a break for awhile..it’s been sometimes since i write in here…life has becoming hectic nowadays, especially this month because of the FYP and final exams…thanks to yannick for kongsi his ubat bunuh diri but dude, let’s enjoy life before we regret the consequences of our actions…i’ve learned that now…i miss a lot of things but i don’t regret that i have to let it go…maybe, for certain things i still can’t get over it but i try to look it on the other side..and i believe miracles do happened and sometimes little things remind me that i shud enjoy this hardships better than when it’s gone..and excitement will appear whenever we did not expecting it…thnaks for all the joys and tears that you bring.and thank u to mr alvin sebab potong air ktorg..now we’re bunch of do re mi waiting for the public toilet…aigooo!

Definisi ku tetap sama dengan kelajuan
Tidak ku kentar kerna bagiku ini masa depan
Tiada penghalang bagiku dan matlamat ku hanya satu
Sentiasa bersedia……..

because of the foolish game of the heart, people are blinded by their feelings and judgement. learning to understand about someone is really a big step for any person to step out from their comfort zone, to get adjusted to the other person likings and habits seems to be addiction to me… i have issues of my own but the truth is, this issues lately, are not something that i could understand myself…it’s just something from the heart and was out loud by my stupid mouth…so, if you ever read this: i really regret it, and i never regret anything in my life except for what’s happening.but i may regret even more if i lose you.i think i will stop breathing…childish as it is but i really feel that way..

Chingudeuli naege
Niga nareul johahaneun geot gatdae
Nado waenji geureon neukkimeun gajigo isseotjiman
Hokshi anim eojjeona
Gwaenhi honja babogachi geureom eojeona
Geureon geokjeonge
Eotteoke haeya haljul moreugo isseosseo

(Neo reul bolttaemada)
Ni ma-eumeul ilgeuryeo aereul sseobwado
(Maebeon bolttaemada)
Nandareun neukkimeul badeo domuji moreugesseo

Nareul johahamyeon eoseo maleul geoleo
Wae ireoke jakku nae mameul aetaeweo
Johahandamyeon jebal yonggireul naejweo
Naneun gidarineunde
Naneun wae mot oneunde ibabo

Eonjekkaji gyesok geureoke
Nal barabogiman hallae
Nae nuneul barabwa
Neoege daga orago hajanha
Gyesok mangseoridagan
Dareun yongginneun aega meonjeo dagawa
Nal deryeogago namyeon
Eolmana hu hwe hallyeogo geurae

(Neo reul bolttaemada)
Nae ma-eumeul boiryeo aereul sseobwado
(Maebeon bolttaemada)
Neon ae naemameul moreuni ajikdomoreugenni

Nareul johahamyeon eoseo maleul geoleo
Wae ireoke jakku nae mameul aetaeweo
Johahandamyeon jebal yonggireul naejweo
Naneun gidarineunde
Naneun wae mot oneunde ibabo

Eonjekkaji geureoke babogachi gullae
Dodaeche nal deryeogallae mallae
Ireoke neol gidaridagan naega meonjeo
Jichyeoseo neol pogihagesseo
Geureoni deonjyeobwa

Jashinitge neo eui gobaegeul naege
Naega yeogiseo ireoke ssaineul juneunde
Mweoga duryeoungeoni
Eo nae apeuro dagawaseo meotjige gobaekhae
Yonggireul naebwa eoseo

but i feel like i’m drowning in this massive crowd of people..my mind feel stuck in a strange place and it makes me uneasy…if only i could be invisible…too many stuff to handle which i could not even know where to begin.life is hard and i feel like been burdened by many hopes…isn’t it good if i could run away from the line and go to the only place that even i did not know about….

yeah, people always say that rite?things happened for so many reasons…which sometimes is initiated by our own senseless thought. till, today i’ve been wondering, if by telling what i feel about that would make you so mad? am i not being honest to you by telling that as what i dislike? maybe the way i told you seems like i am attacking you, but i do have my own feelings too and it’s seems you just being there without never knowing who i am….does it feel so good to be friend just to toy around with the other person?is that what a friend is to you?chommal mianata, like you i have my own ego even if i am a girl…i’ve done everything to make things right again but you feel more comfortable to be in silence…so, i won’t try anymore and if you ready to talk and tell; i’ll be there…a friend that you could toss and throw around as you like…

i dun’t really follow the drama but the song got me addicted…someone said that it reminds him of Italy..and i think so too but i love it cos it sounds peaceful and romantic in a way…like being hit by the morning sunshine from under the trees..it feel like that..very nice..

Hey hati ku..
Selalu mendambakan cinta
Namun tak kunjung tiba
Hatimu itu
Seperti apa yg ku
mahu selama ini

Ertikanlah pagi ku yg kaku
tanpa kamu

Kau ku cinta
Engkaulah yg ku puja
Tertunggu selama ini
takku jumpa
Dgn mu ku di lamun indah
Ku harap cinta akan
tiba di hati kita..

Lihat kamu
Tak ku sedari
Waktu dh mulai tinggalkan ku
Kau kau kau
Buatku lupa mengapa ku
disini pada mulanya..

Ertikanlah malam ku yg sayu
dingin tanpamu
Setiap hari bersama mu
Ku ingin selalu dekatmu
Ku hitung saat dan waktu
Hingga hari esok kembali lagi

yeah, i like to spill things in here..and i love it cos i meant it for people to read because most people can’t really tell the truth and instead telling lies to save THEMSELVES. i wonder about it when they talk proud about them being true when they are nothing more than hypocrite. which ironicly they hate such type of people…and damn, i am really mad when i know about many things from them…but i feel LUCKY cos i realised it before they bury me with their fake innocent faces and lies…just, i wonder until when they gonna go around and make stories about each of people that supporting - so- called friends of them…poor friends, been cheated down your own nose..do you think it’s worth to be friend with someone that ONLY need you when in trouble but keep telling people they hate you at your back? or could be you just the same type as them? wow, that’s no surprises..tell you what,this ain’t drama, if you want it so much…get more slim and go for casting..don’t just watch the tvee…you’ll get yourself more IMAGINATION than the REALITY…..ciao!

i have been wondering sometimes about this guy…yes, i thought he’s cute anyway. however, not only that he’s cute that make me attracted to stare at him..it feels like i’ve seen him from somewhere but i couldn’t recalled my memories….too much blanks, i suppose..so, the things is,we always bump to each other every day but nothing interesting happened..just a few glances and i didn’t really think much of it…nevertheless, seeing him often makes me wonder who he is, and yada yada yada;you know how human thinks…so, while i was busy thinking of his possible names on one fine morning in the cafe, a friend of him called him out of the blue
and a name that i wouldn’t thought popped out…it’s khalid!so, the name whispered into my heart…"oh,khalid rupanya.."so, that’s my story for the latest entry.i don’t know why i wanted to write about this but when i am thinking of how i got to know his name, it’s funny…it’s seems like i really concentrate on him and out of blue, i got the answer…pyshic…and also, i guess i really into the novel ayat-ayat cinta too much that i like to see him..he really resembles fahri…fin~

p/s:btw, i have been doing my intership for 2 months now..yeay! working definitely tough..it’s a fact cos each day i have to be ready to learn…seems what i have been learning in uni only relevant when you are proposing solutions or try to look smart…the real thing is, you learn to implement more of the knowledge, all in 1001 ways to make your task works…so, i guess, after graduating, i want to be married as soon as possible…feel sorry to my mr almost perfect but i really want to be a lazy housewife…ja mata,oppa!

Stars are falling from your eyes
You don’t feel what I feel inside
Your hand is warm but your heart is cold
If you’re hurtin’ you don’t let it show

How much longer can we go on
Actin’ like there’s nothin’ wrong?
How much farther we drift apart
Before all the feeling is gone?

I’m losing your love, it’s slippin’ away
Minute by minute, day by day
Losing your love, don’t you think I know
It’s a matter of time ’til you let go

I see the moon shinin’ up above
Reminded me how good it was
There’s a chill comin’ over me
Why can’t it be like it used to be?

I feel so helpless, I can’t make you stay
No matter how hard I try
I can’t deny that look in your eyes
Tryin’ to tell me goodbye